You know how you can pray and pray and pray for something to happen? Asking God to open doors, make a way, make it happen, clear the path, etc. etc. etc.? And then He responds at the craziest possible time and says, “Ok, now.”
As a couple, we have prayed for years for God to open the door for DH to use His teaching gift and extensive knowledge of the Bible. We’ve pushed against the wall a few dozen (ok million) times and nothing has ever really opened up. Now, in the midst of him being unemployed and no discernable income in the near future, the door has been flung wide open with a giant, huge, massive “This is the way, walk in it!” neon sign from God.
Really God? Now? I’m in my senior semester of nursing school. We have no income. It will cost us precious savings. The kids and I will be alone over a holiday. We need new van tires. The kids need braces. Another needs 4 teeth pulled. Now? Are you sure? Trust me when I say we put out a lot of different fleeces asking God if He was really, truly sure. All of them were answered with a resounding “YES!”
So, in the midst of our crazy, mixed up, full-time student in my last semester of nursing school life, DH has been invited to Uganda for 2 weeks to teach at a pastor’s conference. We said “YES” to the call. We’re all in. All in for whatever God asks of us. All in for wherever life may lead us.
The amazing thing…we have complete peace. He will be gone my last 2 weeks of school. Peace. This includes a comprehensive final, comprehensive predictor tests, exit interviews, Quality Improvement project presentations and more without him by my side. Still peace. He arrives home on Black Friday, his Thanksgiving will be spent on planes, ours will be spent without him and no other family nearby. More peace.
It feels as though we have been on a roller coaster chugging up a big hill for a long time. Now we are at the peak, making the top of the hill and the half second pause that occurs as the weight begins to shift before the big rush down. All we can do is throw our hands in the air and enjoy the ride.